Hello my name is Ray and I am a faithful believer in
Jesus Christ. I battle with anger and
self-esteem issues.
When I was 8 years old my dad was murdered on his way
home from work. I questioned God
regarding this event in my life and ended up walking away from Him. I wanted
nothing to do with God. As I grew up I
started going to parties and gay night clubs. It didn’t take long until I was
dressing like a woman, telling my family that I was gay. 5 years into my gay lifestyle I shared with
my family that I wanted to have an operation to become a woman. My mom, who is a Christian, hugged me and
told me that she loved me as did God. I
was so angry that when she gave me a Bible and I ended up throwing it at her.
Oh how I caused her heart to ache, but, I didn’t care; I was so caught up in
the gay lifestyle.
One night, while at a gay club, a young man approached
me and asked if he could take me home. I
don’t know what happened that night but I woke up at the Red Cross. I was beaten and bruised. Doctors told me that I had been thrown from a
car traveling at a high speed. The
doctor told me that I should thank God for saving my life. In that moment I
began to cry as I remembered the words of my mom. As soon as I was released
from the hospital I went to seek forgiveness from my mom. She took me to church the following Sunday
where I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior.
The people of my mom’s church were so wonderful even
though I was still dressing like a woman and wearing makeup. I am so thankful
for their help and advice. After 2 years
of attending my Pastor suggested to me that it was time to start serving. I joined the Usher’s team. When I was told
about the Celebrate Recovery program that our church offered I was so thankful that I didn’t know what
to do. I praise God for the
volunteers who took the time to explain the program and invite me to the
Thursday night share time. I thank God for allowing me receive the great
blessing of having Celebrate Recovery in my life. I see, think, love and speak different. The program is a tool that taught me to love
myself, forgive myself and my enemies because I do not live anymore but Christ
lives in me.
Thank you for letting me share.
Ray
*all names have been changed to protect their identity
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