My name is Beatrice, I am a believer in Jesus Christ
in recovery and I battle with anger, sadness and doubt.
Before my recovery I had a lot of resentment towards
my family because I was rejected due to my disability. My self-esteem was low because I did not
received love or protection and didn’t understand why God made me this way.
I married a man who loved and treated me good; he even
let me go to church. I didn’t know God
and was easily dominated by the things of this world and that is why I failed. Not only did I fail God but also my husband as
I had an affair. The lowest point in my life was when I neglected my daughter
to the point that she died. Her death is the reason I am in prison.
Today although it doesn’t make sense I thank God for
being here because I have been able to really get to know Him. I was invited to
the Celebrate Recovery Program and I realized I wasn’t the only one suffering,
I identified with all the participating inmates. I have been able to forgive and the
communication with my family has gotten better.
I have learned to trust and know God, I know He loves me and I am
important to Him. Principle 2 says “Earnestly believe that God exists,
that I matter to him, and that he has the power to help me recover.”
I thank God for the Celebrate Recovery Program because
my heart is being restored little by little.
I thank God for my group and the sisters from YUGO because they come
with lots of love not only to share the lesson but because they strive to
provide us with our basic needs.
Thank you for letting me share.
If you met this inmate you would fall in love with her. She has such a beautiful heart.
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