My name is Alli and I am a grateful believer in Jesus
Christ in recovery of drugs, resentment, revenge and rejection.
I suffered rejection
by my father and other family members so I chose to isolate myself from people.
I was very quiet, scared, and had low self-esteem. I felt ugly. My grandmother raised me because my parents
didn’t take care of me. At the age of 15
I met the man who I married and we had 2 children together. Our marriage was good until one day my
husband started to use drugs and he started cheating on me. When I found out I didn’t know how to react;
we didn’t have God in our lives so I decided to use drugs with him just like
his lover so he would not leave me. And instead of me helping him out of his
addiction I sank with him. What started
as revenge ended up destroying my life. My husband tried to help but he didn’t
know how, by then drugs controlled my life.
All I wanted was to get high and didn’t care how I achieve it, if it was
by stealing or by prostituting myself. I began selling drugs and got involved
with people I never imagined having in my life.
I saw and did horrible things; I cared for nobody. My lowest point was
when I got my kids involved in selling drugs.
I am in prison
because I was charged with homicide. When I arrived here I thought my life had
come to end but I was wrong, it was just beginning. I was invited to a group called Celebrate
Recovery. God is restoring my life through this program. I have discovered God’s love. I have been
able to feel freedom even behind these bars because I have a God-given joy.
Through Celebrate Recovery I have learned to give God my hate, resentment and
pain. I am no longer a slave to sin; in my heart there is peace and joy.
God bless you and
thank you for letting me share.
*all names have been changed to protect their identity.
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