My name is Rosalynn and I am a believer in Jesus Christ struggling with co-dependency issues and low self-esteem. Before starting Celebrate Recovery I had very little knowledge of God. I easily exploded in anger when something bothered me. The only time I spoke to God was when I was in trouble. I had a good attitude towards others unless they tried to tell me what to do. Now I recognize that my rebellious attitude and my problems with addictions brought me to prison.
The lowest point of my
life came when I entered the dark world of drugs. I remember spending entire
nights wandering from place to place with my friends waiting for our next fix. I
knew that sooner or later I would have to pay for my mistakes and face the
consequences of my actions. Now I understand that it is by the grace of God
that I am here in prison. I am thankful that He allowed me to come to this
place so that I could begin my recovery.
Someone invited me to the
YUGO-Celebrate Recovery program. I
admit, at first I didn’t appreciate having to sit still for two hours, but
then, something magical began to happen; I started to pay attention to the CR
lessons and it was as if every one of the lessons were written just for me. I became
interested in learning more about God and started talking to Him. I learned how
to pray and I learned that God loves me and is interested in me. I gave my
heart to Jesus and began my personal relationship with Him. I get excited and
can hardly wait for Mondays when the YUGO team hosts the CR program. I know God
will speak to my life through the lesson of that day. I have learned through
the program that God cares for me and His love is never ending. This so beautiful to me.
Lesson 6 ACTION is the
lesson that touched my life the most. It is in this lesson that I learned to
surrender my will to Jesus Christ and allow Him to have control of my life. I
feel God has helped me to have sanity in my thoughts and my life. I have
learned to be more sociable and to relate differently with others. I've exchanged
the feelings of hate, anger and resentment with feelings of peace as I stay in communion with
God and continue to read His Word. I am able to go to church every Sunday and get
to share this very beautiful journey of recovery with many other women here in
prison.
I am a different person
today as I walk with confidence and am learning to have self- control with my
reactions. My goal is to continue walking with God and allow Him to be the
power that guides my life. One of the greatest benefits I have gained through
the CR program is that I now have a personal relationship with Jesus and that I
can trust my life in His care. I believe
with all my heart that God has a purpose for my life. My part is allowing myself
to be led by His Spirit and obey Him. I bravely share this message with other
inmates who are dealing with the same issues I had in the past. Thank you for
allowing me to share. God Bless you all.
*names have been changed
to protect identity*
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